35 Weeks: Losing My Mind

I thought I knew sleep deprivation and acid reflux but apparently we weren’t formally introduced until this week.

Now I know them all too well.  They have left my brain scrambled, by mouth filled with canker sores and my face looking a year older.

I have spent the last two nights propped up on pillows, sleeping on my side only to be awakened by a gush of acid gagging me every 30 minutes. And it burns. Wednesday night I finally just got up at midnight because it hurt so much to be in bed.

I worked a 9 1/2 hour shift on less than two hours of sleep yesterday. It was the longest day ever.

But here’s what is driving me crazy. I am in nesting mode. Not cleaning nesting, redecorating nesting. My husband and I are making over the kitchen. We know we have less than five weeks to get it done before Skittles comes and takes over the house and our lives.

We’ve had the counter tops and light fixtures replaced. Now we are painting and glazing the cabinets.  I spent his past weekend making picture frames and framing black and whites I took in our yard  and of our dog. I have this modern, french country theme going. I’m obsessed with blogs of crafty women who share my taste. I take their home decor ideas and then recreate them with my personal touch.

But NO ONE  has seen it. I don’t share pictures, I don’t ask for advice, I don’t have people over. I’m waiting for the big reveal.

Well, now I’ve convinced myself that it looks terrible and I don’t know what I am doing. Last night I told my husband I may redo all the picture frames. He convinced me to wait.

I tried to take pictures to post but I couldn’t do it. This has to be a pregnancy thing..right? I’m hormonal and tired and stressed about going into labor. Maybe that is it. I found a distraction to keep my mind off  going into labor and now that the end is near for both my makeover and pregnancy I am subconsciously finding another distraction.

I don’t care so much today because I leave for the doctor in a half hour to get another ultra sound.  I GET TO SEE SKITTLES AGAIN! The doctor wants to check on the choroid plexus cysts again. Six weeks ago they appeared to be shrinking.

I will tell you about our doctor visit tomorrow and post pictures of Skittles..Can’t wait to see him!

I MIGHT  show you before and afters of the kitchen next week. We should have the cabinets done by then and one of the wall decor items I secretly ordered (I told my husband I was finished buying decorations) off Ebay should be in.

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  1. Oh my, I think I remember this from my first pregnancy. At least, the crazy nesting part. If it’s any comfort to you, Skittles won’t know if you change the pictures OR get the kitchen done.

    We can’t wait to see new Skittles pics! Add them to this post, will ya?!


  2. Oh sweetie. I so get it. And man… a kitchen re-do will make a not pregnant woman crazy so really, you get a lot of slack with this one.

    I can’t wait to hear how seeing your beautiful boy went. I always looked forward to the ultrasounds. ONE of the best parts of carrying twins was the every-four-week peek inside. 😉

    Blessings for peace. Focus on your breath if you are having trouble sleeping. Don’t think about sleeping so much as just resting your mind and then even if you don’t fall asleep your body and mind might get a bit of rest within the breathing.


  3. Jacque McHugh says:

    I feel your pain with both the heart burn and the decorating! I’ve been sleeping with sugar free cough drops in my mouth – sounds crazy but has really helped the reflux from burning the back of my throat and mouth. New sleep related problem seems to be swelling in my wrists that are causing carpal tunnel like symptoms, ugh…

    32 weeks and we just finished redecorating the nursery and surrounding areas – I’m not nearly brave enough to tackle the kitchen though! Good luck!


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