How to Let Go: The Back Story

Is this a “How to Let Go” or a “How to Move On”? Or maybe it’s a “How to Be Successful”. Because, essentially, it is really a little of each and I was quite torn on which title would best suite this post. But for all intents and purposes, when listed in the preceding order these how-to’s are placed exactly in the order by which you would get yourself from the first point to the last point. So, maybe this should be a mini-series? I might just let you all decide.

I’m sure I’ve mentioned it somewhere before, I’m not one to let go. To me, letting go has always meant giving up. Except, maybe it’s really not.

I’ve always had a penchant for sticking things out. You know that one song with the lyrics that go, “hold on loosely, but don’t let go”? Try “hold on tightly and don’t let go.” That second one is me. Don’t get me wrong, perseverance is a mighty good thing but only to a point.

When I was in high school and I had to move to a different town I was determined to remain faithful to my boyfriend- even though my dad didn’t want me to have anything to do with him. No telephone contact. Not even letters. Only, the letters rule was a surprise. I found out when I accidentally stumbled on a few and a picture the boyfriend had sent me that didn’t make it to the trash can. I found a way to make contact. I didn’t date anyone else. I didn’t even go out because I didn’t want other guys to get the wrong idea. For  TWO YEARS!!!

Do you know how long that is in high school time? It’s kinda like dog years. In the end, there was an end. I met someone else and he wasn’t right for me either, but by that time I was much more willing to move on.

Flash forward a few years to my marriage. Crumbling after only TWO years. Hold on tightly, I thought. Don’t let go. But the tight holding only made things worse. It made the fighting worse. It made me miserable. I lost 20 pounds in just a few weeks time. And then I did it. I told my husband, “If you need to go, that’s okay. But I love you.” I left him alone. I let him think. I let myself think. Was this even what I wanted? Why were we both so miserable? Once we were able to relax, we were able to work through it.

And now? I’m letting go of something else. A long standing dream of mine. A dream that will never be realized, because I realized it might just not be what I really wanted after all. I am not a writer.

Feels kind of weird to shake hands with it after staring at it for so long.

Next time, How to Let Go: The Process (The one where I actually walk you through the steps of letting go one at a time. Don’t be scared, hold my hand.)


  1. ‘K. I’m holding tight. Holding ON to letting GO…with you. 😉 (((hugs)))


  2. Letting go is a difficult thing. And it requires a ton of honesty. Which, to be honest, can be really difficult to take. It’s like telling yourself something you don’t really want to hear, but you’ve known it to be true for awhile. Sometimes it’s easier to keep pretending, but the easiest things are rarely ever (never?) the most rewarding.


  3. Also?

    It’s a GIRL!


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