Ok look, I’m having trepidation about spending Christmas with my husband’s parents. Overall, they are good people – they are nice, like to play games and don’t have a problem talking. Hell, we’ve been married nine years, you’d think that I’d be used to hanging out with his family by now. However, I always get a bit unsettled because I feel so ancillary to our family gatherings. I’m never quite so sure if it’s an east coast-west coast thing or if it’s just the BIG love of my husband and the boys that leaves me out in the cold.
To add to it, Husband and I have been on rocky territory lately and I’m feeling even a bit more unsettled than usual. We’re regularly going to counseling and it’s absolutely been making a difference for the two of us, but I’m concerned about this trip and that the general stress of the holidays is going to throw us into the deep end again. I think I freaked out on him for buying a kid gift that I thought was crossed off the list. However, he keeps insisting this it’s worth the cost, we’ll make space for it and the boys will love it. (I keep saying to myself, “Jen, let it go. Let it go.”)
And one more thing… [Read more…]